Thursday, February 05, 2009
Shit. I let it get to me.
So I'm not helping out anymore. Yeah I was looking forward to it quite a fair bit. I miss all my closest friends. I miss having to looking forward to. I miss going to church. I don't know lah. My head's really heavy right now.
Today wasn't good at all. I had too many awkward moments. You know feeling sian is just so tiring. I HATE something. I don't know what. Like what I was thinking to myself and God when I was walking home just now. Nobody really gives a damn what kind of a day I've had... excpet for God. Yet you can tell me what kind of a screwed up day you had.
Life is so much like a routine now. Every morning I wake up, hoping it's the weekend. I bathe, brush my teeth, change, eat, go to school, lessons, hang around in the canteen wasting my life away, going for choir, going home, bath, eat and then sleep. Jesus daddy, thank you for something exciting tomorrow and the day after.
My mum voiced her concern that CCA's going to affect my studies. Hell yeah it's going to.. but there's nothing much I can do. I really want to quit so badly. I hate it so much.Without SYF my efforts in choir will be equivalent to nothing. Nothing.
And here's the best part. It's only the beginning.
